For those of you who are familiar with the Medicine path of the Q’ero Shamans, I dreamed of Jaguar through out the night.
In addition to the Andean Shamanic tradition, I incorporate the Kabbalistic tradition as well.
Archangel Gabriel, similar to the West archetype of Jaguar, is the angel of fire, minister of courage, bravery, judgement and also is expressed as a warrior, sent to assist humanity to surpass fear, old traumas and move into an illuminated life of peaceful power.
They both appeared in my dream last night.
I saw myself in a coffin half way dug in a grave of dirt. There was a piece of cloth shoved in my throat that was keeping me from speaking. There were words on this coffin, it said “Victim.”
I immediately began digging myself out in my dream. I drug my limp arm onto the surrounding green grass and began shouting at myself, “Wake up, wake up! There’s more to be lived!”
In my dream I took the old rags, the rotting wood of the coffin and Angel Gabriel gave me fire and I began to burn this old story away.
Jaguar brought me back and I woke up with tears, it felt so real. I felt I brought a piece of a lost soul with me early this morning.
Why do we live as victims?
I think there are several layers of surviving a traumatic event.
Sometimes being brave is waking up in the morning and living a mundane routine without crumbling and breaking under the pressure of past pain.
But ultimately we evolve and grow.
Is there a payoff to living as a victim?
Unfortunately the truth is, yes there is.
We hide from our destiny, we sulk and keep our light hidden and live in the excuse that we don’t have to try because the world will just hurt us anyway.
I know something today that I didn’t know yesterday.
That is that we have a a choice in the story between perpetrator and victim.
Tracking back into time, there is a moment of detachment as you see the scene being played out like a movie in your head.
You were living freely, without concern of a violent world, then out of nowhere someone crossed your path and forced their hate filled story and life onto you.
You don’t have be enslaved to their story. You can free yourself from those shackles at any time. It’s not your story.
Why waste your days on earth living for a perpetrator who used you as their ‘dumping grounds?’
What do you do after you realize the wound needs healing?
How do you free yourself from victimhood and become your own hero?
All the answers we need live within us.
In the Shamans vision and in the world of Quantum Physics, time is always moving backwards and forwards, the past and the future are simultaneously existing.
Jaguar and Angel Gabriel are sentinel beings who are guides to take us through this constant light of time.
Before the violent event that changed me into a fearful person, I went backwards in time, I was 5 years old playing in the mud while there was a thunder storm.
I felt the electricity on my tongue, I danced in the cold rain as I jumped in the mud with no concern for mess, harm or danger.
There is my hero, I found her, there is my healer.
I took her to the moment of time where the story of pain started and we abolished that story and returned that story back to earth, back to the neutral void of nothingness.
Courage will come when your soul is ready to evolve and quantum leap into the next level of our healed becoming.
If the time comes to heal and you avoid it, it will take more energy to hide from it, which can lead to illness and other negative consequences of your power turning itself on you.
We have the power to author the story of fear and victimhood, into one of bravery and heroism.
No one is going to come and do it for you. You will have to get sick and tired of coddling your broken self in the corner.
You are not discarded, you were taking a break. Now it’s time to wake up.
You needs you, the world needs you. You are a holy fragment of the Creators light.
Your perspective and expression is very important.
Waking up from a painful stupor is holy work. Those scars no longer vibrate in pain, they are reminders of your capacity to survive, thrive and live on purpose.
What’s the greatest thing you can do in the face of the oppressor, perpetrator who tried to bring you down to their level?
Take that middle finger and flip that asshole off. Fuck off little person who needs to hurt others to feel big.
You take steps forward, never look back and you live on purpose, with big strides. Enough tiptoeing, enough apologizing for your existence.
You have a right to be here. You are the answer to the problem. Inside of you energetic body lives all the former healed selves.
No its not your fault, you did nothing wrong. Now move on and get on with life already.
Calling in Jaguar and Angel Gabriel to do the gritty unraveling work of pain to empowerment, is the path of the peaceful warrior.
It’s not easy, but it needs to be done if you want to achieve freedom in all its forms. You have to face yourself.
Soon you can walk into the world undetected, invisible to the negative individuals who force their pain onto others, burning their stories away from humanity and rewrite a new world story and weave a kinder consciousness of balance and love.
You are now walking in the realm of angels, you are your own moving myth, with complete discernment of your story and have become your own archetype of peace and power.
To the fierce Jaguar woman, A-ho!